Peace Stolen

Peace Stolen

It's funny how you can be feeling at peace and then all of the sudden a quick thought will advance into your mind, stealing all peace from within. Now your mind is turning circles, where you’re now thinking of ways to take yourself out of reality; or of ways you can make the Friday night a better time. You think about going to a movie, but you also think about going to a movie on something, or high. You think about how fun it would be to go see the new thriller that just came out in theaters lifted on a few a few Percocet’s. You think: “What’s the harm? - I haven't done that in a long time, I've been doing good.” The remembrance from times previous of being lifted on Percocet’s flows freely into your mind where you remember how euphoric and good you once felt; however, for some reason you don't remember how bad you felt, nor the consequences the next day brought.Once it's in your mind, the entire night changes. Your once peaceful thinking is now lost, in which the Dragon has now made an appearance in your mind. Time starts going by slower, and any plans or reservations that you may have had seem to change in your mind. It's almost as if you've already obtained the Percocet’s you are now so badly seeking. You've played it out so well in your mind, and for whatever reason it sounds perfect, like all is well with this new impulsive perspective that has now suddenly formed. You feel a certain anxiety, like you won't be content with anything until you get them, while at the same time you’re also being tugged in the opposite direction of not being content with them either. Your emotions and thoughts are scattered to the point where your almost not even the same person you were a few hours ago, in which everything seems to be distorted in your mind. You’ve been having full blown conversations with people where you only to pretend to listen, but your thoughts are directed elsewhere. Your thoughts are directed on the substance, causing you to become a master of persuasion and manipulation.The plot continues to thicken, where you start manipulating the night in the direction you need it to go. You feel like your ten steps ahead of everyone, and you are. The only thing that’s on your mind now is the Percocet’s, so you start revolving all decisions around obtaining them. You’ve painted the perfect picture in your mind and nothing is going to stop you from making that picture become a reality. In a funny, unique way you almost feel high even though you haven’t partaken of the Percocet's yet. You’ve seen a powerful glimpse of the mood enhancement the pills would provide you with; and you’ve played the scenario out brilliantly in your mind on how to actually go about obtaining these pills, therefore you almost feel like you’ve already taken them, so you’ll go to great lengths in manipulating the night in a way that will allow for the scenario to unfold, and the score to take place.Once the night finally goes exactly as planned you still aren’t content, in which you now are experiencing anxiety, worry, and even regret. You realize what you’ve done, and that the Dragon has once again tricked you into thinking that it was okay to dabble since you hadn't dabbled for a time.  He also tricked you in the sense that the night actually got worse instead of better after you partook of the Percocet’s in which you progressively became irritable, ornery, and regretful. The escape never amounted to what you had built up in your mind. You then recollect how good you had been previously feeling through the long period of clarity you were experiencing in the months before, and that the Percocet’s only stole your peace, bringing you down from that once enjoyable happy state, to that of a more miserable and worrisome state.You pray to the Invisible Hand asking for help and guidance in assisting you out of this dark hole the Dragon has now put you in. You ask and plead in your prayers that the Invisible Hand help you to stop, not furthering your progress towards the Dragons way. The next day brings depression, doubt, worry, and fear into your mind, and the Dragons whisper seems to be clear and close; He knows that at this particular time He has a better chance now, more than ever, to get you back into His wicked routine.So you go on in fighting the WAR this next day. The constant whispers from the Dragon. The diligent prayer to the Invisible Hand. The reading coupled with prayer. The exercise coupled with prayer. The nutrition and water intake; and then more prayer, and more reading. Slowly but surely you’re getting strong, where you're now, once again, starting to see the benefit in living the Invisible Hands way, as opposed to the Dragons way. The Dragons whisper is still ever present as the day progresses, but your mind and way of thinking seems to be progressing in a positive direction to where the selfish thinking is leaving, and the more charitable thinking is returning; for the Invisible Hands way is charitable, and the Dragons way is selfish and prideful.By the days end you feel better, but are still a little off. You close the night off with a prayer to The Invisible Hand, thanking Him for the assistance in winning today’s WAR, and asking for further assistance in winning tomorrows WAR.And the battle goes on….-HawkCheck out todays Gym Experience