Back Again

Back Again

A Story Told By The Dragon

It's amazing the lifestyle that you have been holding down this last month, at least since the last time we met over New Years. I didn't think you had it in you to escape my grips when I unexpectedly led you to Amphetamine that night; and then of course Amphetamine led you to Opiate, just as He always does. 

You did end up getting away from us though, where you locked down your nutrition in a way that I've never seen you do before, which then obviously led you to working out intensely. And for some reason you never seem to let up on your spiritual work with the Invisible Hand, however, even this time you worked at a pace that I've never seen.  Your efforts to gain His spiritual light and presence back into your heart and soul was impressive, though it saddened me because I'm starting to get the feeling that you are coming to rely on Him now more than Me. Such diligence in your work towards Him must have been because of the way our last meeting went; and how it scared you due to me engraining within your mind, and even deeply, the concept that you might not make it back.I have to admit - you are doing well in managing my friends and colleagues, namely: opiate, amphetamine, pot, and alcohol. You are also getting better at dealing with my feeder friends, which are: depression, anxiety, and boredom, which does trouble me some- because through them, in the past, I have always been able to lead you back. Your relationship with The Invisible Hand has become strong this past year, and your understanding concerning His gifts of exercise and nutrition has become a great tool for you when it comes to escaping my grips. You used to not have it in you to break free of my grips, in which you would come back my way for weeks and even months at a time. Now, and because of the strong emphasis you place on in living this so called WAR lifestyle, it has become evident that you only remain in my world for a short amount of time; however, I do feel that I need to remind you of one important truth, which is the truth that we do still share some quality time together, and that just because the frequency isn't what it used to be, it matters not - because as long as you and I maintain even the slightest of relationships-means that I still have a chance, and will always have a chance, which does in fact give me hope.Like this past month, and how you've been on this spiritual, nutritional, and physical upward journey-to where you've almost seemed to carry a glow about you. The Invisible Hand calls this glow his light, which is a light that He supposedly grants to those who choose to walk his path boldly, and without escape. I, obviously, am not a fan of such a light, in which I prefer the dark. Your little hiccup over New Years pushed away that light that I hate, and brought you back down to the dark character that I love, which is the character that I prefer, since its through such a character that no charity can be found, and I am not a promoter of Charity. I hate it when you remain clear, are eating healthy, and are studying and praying consistently to the Invisible Hand. I hate it when you are working out six days a week, where you are tying those workouts in with your spiritual work. I hate that you have discovered the power that comes through the harmonization of the mind, body, and spirit. I hate how you have learned to fend off my colleague depression through the use of exercise, scripture study, and nutrition. I wish you would go back to being lazy, where you just laid around, popped something, and just waited for the quick easy escape. Isn't popping something so much easier than going to workout, or opening up your scriptures? Why go out and create experiences for yourself through being physically active when you could just pop something and lay on the couch? My way is very easy, and The Invisible Hands way is very hard. He requires work and endurance through his timetable. I have no timetable, for I will grant everything to you now - just as I granted it to you now on New Years Eve.Wasn't it a lot of hard work this last month for a very small return? The Invisible hands rewards seem to be spread out and are lasting; his return never packs a quick and immediate punch. My return, on the other hand, will be quick, powerful, but won't last long. But what does it matter if it lasts long or not?- It was quick and powerful, which means you can just do it again, and again, therefore, in a most unique and even deceitful way- it will be lasting, though not in the way that you will think. I have an idea for you to ponder on. It's an idea that I've been trying to plant in your mind for a while now, so here me out: Since you have been doing good with your nutrition, physical self, and the putting aside of my Worldly Substances, then why don't you think about having a good time for this upcoming Super Bowl weekend? Why don't you eat whatever you want?-Go ahead and drink that sprite that you have been craving; eat that pizza; get into those buffalo wings; indulge in the food scene like you have never done before, but while you do that-why don't you also think about using my greatest friend and colleague Opiate as well? Wouldn't a Roxycontin be fun to watch the game on, while also hanging out with your family and friends? Just imagine how much better of a mood you'll be in. It will only be this one time, and you've been doing so good. You'll be able to bounce back - I promise. You've been bouncing back successfully this entire past year, and what makes you think that this time is going to be any different?  Just imagine how good Roxy will go down after you are full on food; which will be a food that you have been successfully putting off as well this past month; for both the food and Roxy, and  in combination, will feed delight into your mind and satisfaction into your soul. The food will help you to not feel nauseous from the effects of Roxy since you haven't taken Her in a while, which will then create a perfect platform for a perfect high to unfold, and one that will be relaxing and therapeutic. The conversations you will have with people will flow more freely, and your mind will be at ease, and even focused on something other than your work.The blue pill is calling you, and it is my hope that you will heed to Her call, then leading you to making the call so that we can be together at the beginning of this month, as we were last month. I'm cool with this routine, because I know that if I can keep you in this routine that I will eventually come to meet up with you in the middle of the month as well, in which our one time a month rendezvous will turn into two times a month, then three, then four, until eventually we come to see each other everyday again.