The Syrup Rut

The Syrup Rut

 A Story Told By The Dragon

 Part 4 of 4

 “To do something again is to return to a previous position or condition”

I can see that you almost got out of my rut; however, this summertime cough has the potential to bring you back down to my bottom again. That cough of yours is intense, and even relentless. I can tell that it hurts, which is why I felt it so necessary to lead you to the Promethazine Codeine cough syrup. You will love what this syrup will do for you; it will relieve your cough, and give you similar effects as Percocet, if not better effects than Percocet. One teaspoon is not enough, just like two Percocets are never enough; this first go around why don’t you go ahead and take two teaspoons full instead of the recommended dose of one, since you do have a high tolerance. And never mind that warning label - two teaspoons full won't lead you to trouble in your breathing, that's absurd. Just swallow it down, and watch your day change. Your cough will subside, and your feelings will be lifted.Don't act like you didn't want this to happen. I know it's been on your mind ever since you realized the severity of this cough. You knew that this could be your great excuse to escape once again. I know how bad you want to get out of my rut, but it looks like our time together is going to have to last just a while longer since you do in fact have a refill. You can't believe they gave you a refill, and you seem to have mixed feelings regarding this. A part of you wants to get rid of the syrup all together, but my part of you wants you to take all of it, including the refill.You just don't know what to do - do you? This rut has been long and lasting, and to think that you were so close to getting back on the light path. This pneumonia coughing has got to have you frustrated; but does it really have you frustrated? I see that the syrup is going fast, and that you do like what it has to offer; now every three hours or so you’re taking upwards of four teaspoons full, and this makes me happy. It's never enough is it? You are only on day two of having the syrup, and its quantity has diminished to less than half. Keep going with it, you've already started down this road, and plus - you need it for your cough so it's okay.I noticed today you put off using the syrup as long as possible; however, wasn't it comforting to know that later on in the day you were going to escape into its world? So of course you had a peaceful morning; you knew that come afternoon time you were going to take five teaspoons full this time, instead of four. Always pushing the limits aren't you? That is why I love working with you; nothing is ever good enough.Anyway, keep going, I'm sure you'll fight your way out of my rut eventually because you always do, but I'm hopeful that maybe this time will be different than times of past. I have to give you credit, you do have an uncanny ability to never give up. The reason for this has to be your constant praying and studying of the Invisible Hands ways. If I could just get you to quit striving to have a relationship with Him, I know that I could get you back on my path for the duration; however, you never seem to let up, in which you have an incredible diligent nature about you. It makes me so mad when you pray to Him, asking for help in getting out of my rut. It makes me so mad when you read and study the scriptures; and then it makes me even madder when you pray and write about the concepts that you read about in those scriptures. Don't keep doing that! If you're going to read the scriptures just read them casually, don't read them with a real intent to learn in hopes of changing through them.Whatever happens-happens. You may get past me after this syrup and cold is gone, but you'll never be totally rid of my grips. I have made an impact on your mind, memory, and soul. You will forever remember this impact, which is why you'll always let me back in, for all I have to do is use my worldly substances, since I know that they are your Achilles heal.So keep on in fighting the WAR, as will I, and we will come to find out who can endure the longest. You know my weaknesses, as I know yours; I am weakest when you put the Invisible Hands Shield and Armor on; and you are weakest when I find a weak spot in that armor. Once I find a hole or a weak spot in your armor, I will then strip it off peace by peace until you are spiritually naked, and then is the time when I will become strong, and you will become weak, and since you have been in this rut, you have slowly become weak, and almost spiritually naked. Though you don't realize it quite yet, you are in fact very vulnerable at this time, and this cough syrup has put a great twist on my perfectly designed plan. Even when you get rid of the syrup, and your cough subsides, your armor will still be weak, then causing your spiritual foundation to be loose and even rickety. Where your foundation before the rut was built upon a rock, where now it has slowly turned to sand, and is now unstable.Oh, I see that you threw away the cough syrup bottle, so you're obviously not going to take advantage of the refill. That's no skin off my back, because I've got you in a pretty good position anyway. I'm fueling intense depressive thinking into your mind, and I know that it's only a matter of time before you'll cave and go on the hunt for Opiate. Three days of intense Codeine cough syrup use is going to be hard on an individual like yourself, in that the few days following and going without are going to be hard on your mind. These are the days I'm going to work on you the most intensely. You’re going to be emotional, depressed, and your spiritual armor will be weak, and almost non-existent. I realize that you are going to be hard at work at getting your armor back on since that's what you've done in the past, but so will I be hard at work in keeping it off of you.I can see that your cough continues to thicken, so maybe it's time for you to go see your primary care physician since the physician you saw for the cough syrup was just an after hours clinic. Maybe it's time to get serious and go get on some antibiotics, because after all - you have been sick for two weeks now, and it's only gotten worse. You have been complaining to your wife about a toothache, but since you and your family don't have insurance maybe you can kill two birds with one stone and get some relief from the pain of the toothache, and also some antibiotics to kill the cough. This is just a thought for you to consider, since you do in fact have a toothache; therefore you wouldn't be lying. Just give it a shot, and obviously play the toothache out to be more than it really is; because if you play this out right, then an Opiate prescription may be written for the pain, which would be a nice relief from your depressive thinking for a time, and would probably help with your cough more so than the actual syrup, because lets be honest, the syrup did nothing more than lift your mood, allowing you to escape reality for a time. That's all you were really ever in it for anyway right? -The mood enhancement. The cough was just an excuse, though I realize that it has been annoying and troublesome. But has it really been annoying and troublesome? I think not. It got you what you deep down inside wanted anyway - which was Opiate, my greatest tool, friend, and colleague. Maybe on the surface you didn't want Opiate, but deeply you longed for his comfort and relief.This go around is an interesting one. I feel like I've got an edge on you this time. I am hopeful, and even confident that I'm going to win this WAR, so let the battle continue, and we’ll see who comes out on top.-Dustin Hawkins